Something has changed in the past few days. Or at least it seems so.
Thursday was the first day of the Jewish new year. Before the change in calendar year, I knew I wanted to write something meaningful and reflective –after all, that’s the customary thing to do in those kinds of turning points in our lives, no? However, nothing came to me except that I wished that things will finally go in the right direction, turn for the better, or just ask for some ease in my constantly anxious and analytic mind. For some reason it felt wrong to just ask and hope.. My ideas didn’t flow or click (hmm.. that’s an interesting phrase there).
So I gave up. I just let things be without analyzing them. And I think that it’s the lesson I had to learn or at least internalize as the new year started: think less, do more, and enjoy the ride. I feel that I have written about that so many times, but I never learned the lesson. I am choosing to make this my new year resolution.
Since the beginning of the new year, things have been feeling good, better, not as bothersome. There could be a million reasons for this, but I find myself finally taking joy again in little things like I used to before. I feel like a complete fool when these moments happen, but I cannot help but literally smile and chuckle. At the beach, driving on the Pacific Coast Highway, eating fish tacos, having a good day at work, driving to work with palm trees towering over me from two sides of the road, talking on the phone with people I love.
I am thankful. I am content. I am lucky to be living my life.
Happy New Year