I remember telling my best friend that I want a fresh start, a clean slate, a blank page. The need for it stemmed from the lack of direction, the distraction, the fragmented time spent between a few places, trying to appease not only myself, but also people around me. There was no point in time where I could say, “here’s to a new page in my book.” And I figured that maybe that was the problem –maybe that’s what I needed.
However, a fresh start means starting from the ground up. It means leaving everything behind and getting back to basics. I knew that since I have done it before, but I did not want to give up on everything that I had and worked for. I wanted to have the cake and eat it too.
Be careful what you wish for, they say.
Now that the possibility of an entirely new place is becoming increasingly likely, it scares me.. but at the same time also excites me. I just have to remind myself that I have done this before. I went to college in a different state, did not know anyone there, did not know anything about North Carolina, and have never been further away from home for such a long time. The first few months, or year, were difficult, but I made it through and I have come to really love that place that was so unfamiliar to me three years before.
So with that, here’s to a new start.
Cause maybe that’s just what I need.